From time to time, a question has been coming across in my mind: what is the reason or significance for my existence. When this question appears, I have a strong wish to figure it out. I also think that my existence is strange sometimes.
I am a wordless person and introverted because of my inferiority complex. Therefore, I talk less with my friends, colleagues and even my family members. Most of the time, I just sit there quietly and listen to other people talking and I seldom express my thoughts. I am afraid of being laughed at and taking trouble to other people.
Just because of my personalities, in many situations, I find myself being ignored just like I am invisible. When I feel I am ignored, the strange question comes: what is the significance of my existence?
Although I react less with other people, I have a colorful inside world and I think more than others about me, people and the whole world. When I am immersed in my inside world, that question also could come across suddenly in my mind. Sometimes I believe that other people’s existence is just the natural thing, but why is there me on earth. In addition, I believe that I may be a miracle creation of gods.
Maybe you think that I am unreasonable and crazy to think about that question; however I still want to know why I can feel myself and the whole world. Where I come from on earth?
Why me? It may be a philosophy question or it would be clear when my life goes to the end. Before my life’s end, this question would be always with me, I think.